If you have gone through my site, then you know I am a mother. I have two beautiful, great kids who mean the world to me. I am also a stay at home mom. It has been awhile since I posted and lately I have felt the urge to reconnect with fellow panic/gad sufferers in particular, mothers. For all of you out there who suffer like I did, and still on rare occasions do, you know how difficult it can be to manage your sanity or lack thereof and your livelihood as a mother! On so many occasions I would find myself withdrawing from many social circles, such as school activities, church, the dreaded play dates. How many times would I find myself running to a bathroom, or scouting the closest one, in case of another dreaded panic attack. I became reclusive, lonely and depressed.

Things would get better, and I would slowly enter back into the “Mommy World” again, plan playdates attend church etc..but before long I would be back at home, alone and suffering.

Until recently life was going pretty good, but lately I have been forgetting to manage my fearful thoughts and I have realized that my obsessive thinking is trying to creep back into my life. The “What Ifs” are back too. I know though, that I have the ability to end this straight away without it escalating into full blown panic mode, and I am very thankful for that.

Guess I just felt the need to let everyone know, or whoever reads this, that it is o.k for everyday not to be perfect and anxiety free. That of course life has it’s ups and downs, as does our battle against GAD/ Panic and sometimes our anxiety as mothers is actually warranted!

I think that now, because I am well equipped, my anxiety will never get as out of hand that it would in the past. I am able to recognize what is happening and therefore I have the power to stop it! Which makes all the difference. No matter what it will never have the grip that it did (not too long ago) on me, again.

Thanks for reading,

Sarah